On the Third Day

I sit here tonight listeining to Matt Maher's On the Third Day. The entire song talks of how the very world we live in points to the Easter storey and how Jesus prevailed on the third day. Theres a 'line that says "for everything must die to rise again" and today that brings me great peace and hope. I got word today that my Grandma Brown is in the last days of her life, she has begun the molding process, and is curled up into the fetal position. The DOC at her LTC facility has told us to prepare, for the time is comming soon. I had my moment of crying today and yes it is sad but i know where she is going when she passes and that is a far better place then our world can offer. Back to the line "For everything must die to raise again" Tonight i took that and applied it to my Grandma B. She is very sick, she is in the very last stages of Alzhimers and her quality of life is very low, when my grandma dies she will "rise" and go to heaven where she will be freed from her sickness, she will no loner be plauged with this awfull disease. SHe will be able to walk, and talk, and sing. She will be reunited wth her dear sweet Beth, she will sit at the feet or her saviour and bask in the wonder of his beautiful face; and all of this becuase she will have died. So yes this impending death will be sad, but really we can take comfprt in knowing that "everything must die to rise again"

What a week!

The week is drawing to and end and i have to say it has been an interesting one for sure. 5 days ago i recieved the word that Shaun had been involved in the incident overseas. I posted on monday about it, and u all know of my disgust r/t it. I do however have to praise our Glorious and AWESOME God for his watch care over him. As i told a CBC representative, i do not believe in luck, and i told shaun that b4 he left, hence never wishin him "good luck" I do however believe in the unfailling power of the Lord Jesus Christ who has enabled Shaun to come home (which is tomorrow night by the way!!!!) It is bitter sweet of course, this isnt the way we would have wanted for him to come back, however he is alive and that is something to be so thanfull for. Another note to the families of the others who were not as forunate, my love and prayers go out to you in the deepest and most sincer way!

What a sick World

What a sick world we live in these days. I shake my head as i read the news. Yesterday a canadaian LAVIII was hit with explosives causing the amo on board to ignite and kill 6 and critically injury one candadian solider. I shake my head! These men were over there trying to make this country a BETTER place. They went over believeing in the mission, they went so that the citizens of the nation could have a better life, and this is what they get in return. I was very close to the injured solider, i thank GOD that he wasnt killed but for 6 families and friend groups the news wasnt as good.
To the Cpl Fevens family, we pray for a speedy and total recovery for Shaun, I have to believe that God spared him his life, and that he has great things in store for him. To the Sgt. Lucas, Cpl. Williams, Pte.Kennedy, Pte.Greenslade, and Cpl. Stannix families i pray for you all in this trying time. I can even begin to imagine the loss that you are experiencing, you lost sons, fathers, brothers, partners. Know that like many my prayers are with you, and i mean that. I pray daily for the soliders and thier families both present and fallen. Their families are as much a part of this war as they are, its just in a little different way.
Love and Prayers to all

A poem by Dad

A poem by my Dad for you Sweet Beth

The day dawned dark as the creek ran high.
The girl wandered off while the world seemed fine.
The waters churned white while the mother marked time
.The creek bank beckoned as the shoppers walk by.

The moment marked only by trees and brook
The quiet calls merged into desperate look.
The crews offered hope while doubtful heads shook.
The girl was ensnared by a wooden stick’s crook.
The family wretched as the word was brought.
The mother melted as the father fought.
The grandmother prayed as the brother thought.
The doctor listened as the body taught.

The preacher preached as the people cried
The hearse was readied and the casket aligned.
The streets were emptied by motorcade ride.
The graveyard beckoned as the casket was spied.
The heavens opened as the angels sang.
The strings of heaven sweet music rang.

The Father welcomed and the Son explained.
The child, now enlightened, awaits The Coming Day!

They're off

Well they're off, 120 troops from CFB gagetown left today. Amongst them was Cpl. Shaun Fevens, a dear friend of mine. I Prayed for them a couple times today, and will continue to do so ove rthe next 6 mos. Although i have been praying for out troops b4 now, it is personal now. And i find its closer to the forefront of my thoughts. As always i will wear red friday a simple way to remind myself of the sacrifices these men and women are making for me.

WOW!

Well what an awesome day!!!!! Let me repeat that... WHAT AN AWESOME DAY!!!!! I went to church this AM and the presence of the Lord fell upon me like I have never felt it before. I was brought to tears. I cried uncontrollably and could not even pin point exactly why. I just knew it was God. I have been less then myself recently, and I heard over and over today GOD WILL HEAR YOUR CRIES. Pastor Jim said he felt lead to open the alters again, he just felt like he was supposed to do it. I steped out of my seat b4 the words left his lips andwent to the alter and humbled myself b4 God and you know what a huge burden has been lifted from my chest. This overwhelmed feeling that I have been carrying for the past month seems to be lifted... PRAISE THE LORD.
We had a guest speaker who spoke about the need to step out of your comfort zone and obey God. Although in part I think she means greater things, big plans God has instore for me ,things I know he wants me to do, the beginning of that "stepping out of your comfort zone" was me walking to the alter. Those of you who know me know when it come to things like that I am rather shy. I find it awkward to pray out loud at the dinner table. So to make a public declaration of prayer (the alter) is pretty big.
Anyway I may be overwhelmed with school and the business it brings, I may be feeling alone in this basement of an Apt, but I know I am not in this alone. God is with me and is there for me. And if that isn't comfort then I don't know what is.
PRAISE THE LORD FOR HIS UNFAILING MERCIES!

My desire - J. Camp

You want to be real, you want to be empty inside
You want to be someone laying down your pride
You want to be someone someday
Then lay it all down before the king

You want to be whole, you want to have purpose inside
You want to have virtue and purify your mind
You want to be set free today
Then lay it all down before the king

This is my desire, this is my return
This is my desire to be used by you
You want to be real, you want to be empty inside
And I know my heart is to feel you near
And I know my life
It's to do your will
It's to do your will

All my life I have seen
Where you've take me
Beyond all I have hoped
And there's more left unseen

There's not much I can do to repay all you've done
So I give my hands to you!

Cookies!

A few cookies for you my e-audience!
~MERRY CHRISTMAS!

random writing

Well it's 5mins to 1 suday evening, well monday morning i suppose. I have an examin less than 8hrs. and i should be studying yet somehow i seem drawn to write here. Exam seasons is upon us and oh how i hate it. The coffee pot is forever on, and if ya'll thought i drank alot of coffee b4 you aint seen nothin yet. ( ok enough southren talk)
I am feeling rather relaxed tonight, despite the ball of nerves i really am. I talked to my mom tonight for a good little while, it was an awesome break from the books. I am really missing her and my dad these days. Its funny how that happens. A person waits thier whole life to move out and grant it i love the freedoms that intails, but theres nothing like goin home. I am going there for a few weeks this holiday season and i am very much looking forward to it. It should be good. Well my eyes are gettin heavy and sadly i still have studying to do so off i go.
Love to you all!

Time

Anyone who knows me knows i am a no nonsense kinda girl! We live in a convenience world and i take advantage of that. Online banking, email, express lanes. When i shop i go in on a mission. i have a list, or at least an idea of what i need. Go in , get it , and GET OUT!!! I dont shop "for fun" I just DON'T understand you ppl who do !!!! LOL I like to get things done when there is time so that i am not rushed later on. All of that is well and good. Its great to be productive, an such, but life has so much to offer its important that we do not let it pass us by. Taking the time to stop and smell the flowers LITERALLY. Or take a lesurely stroll. Get outside and lay underneath the stars and just watch. Talk to an old friend and not once look at the clock. Anyway id love to stay and type but im off to enjoy some mother daughter time. I go back tomoorw so i want to seize this moment
Love To You all!

I need this!

I can lie down and sleep soundly because you, LORD, will keep me safe.

~Ps. 4:8 CEV

Help me oh God to hear and believe this. Let this be my comfort tonight, let me feel your presence, may i sleep soundly because of you. Your word teaches us that you are the great shepard the protector. you watch out for your sheep and protect us. Praise be to You for your unfailing mercies.

How awesome to Know!

How awesome to know that God is omniscient, and that he knows exactly what is best for us. I spent some time in prayer this week asking God to help me see what it is he wants for me.(r/t previous post) And last night God answered my prayers and gave me insight. Although the outcome was not what i had thought i wanted I know that it is for the best, because God knows me me better then anyone!!

I wonder as I wander

Isnt that the verse of a song?? I think so. Either way, it seems to fit my pensive mood. I have a lot goin on in this head of mine. A lot of thinking that needs to be done. I feel that i am facing some decisions which need to be made, yet i feel less then infromed on the matter so a good decision will be hard to make. Ok so i am not making any sense i am sure, welcome to my world lol. I am gonna try to take some time this week to pray things through. Relying on God and his infanite wisdom is my best bet i think. Anyway i would love to chat, but much needs to be done before the sun rises and it is all ready getting late. I will end off this post saying it was good to be back in the city for a breif moment. I didnt spend as much time with some as i would have liked, but i will be back again soon. Love to you all!

It's Friday, R U wearing red??

It is friday, are you wearing red? There is a trend begining to form to wear red on fridays. It is a sign of support for our troops. I heard about it a while ago and began to look it up, it started with some military wives wanting to show support, and it just began to grow. I try to wear red on fridays as much as possible. Even for clinical i where my red scrubs. My supprt however is more than just wearing a certain t-shirt, i pray for those troops currently on tour, and those prepareing to go. I talked with a friend tonight who is currently in Afghanistan and the strories he told broke my heart. He is shot at DAILY, and in the 2 months that he has been there he has already lost fellow soliders, friends. I know more going over this winter, so yes it is personal for me, but come on these men and women deserve our support weither we know them or not. Each one is a son , a father, wife or friend. Lets keep em in our prayers!

Ready to Serve

That was the subject line to the email i sent to Global Partners. I felt impressed to email them tonight and inquire about possible opportunities for me to serve this summer. I talked with my sister the other night about the whole thing and how i was waiting on God to tell me when and where. I believe it was He who lead me to email GP and we will wait to see what becomes of it. You my e-audience may or may not know this but i have a huge desire to go over seas, to help those who are less fortunate then I am, to use the talent God gave me and better the world he created, even if that means going to some remote area, thats hot, and sticky, with bad water, and weird food. I am so fortunate to live in North America, and i think sometimes we forget just how lucky we are. Any way i am going to sign off, have a great night all.

Small steps, but cool!

Ok so i am here getting settled into classes, a new set of ppl, new relationships. In the past week, i have been able to work my faith, and even my relationship with Christ into conversations. As my title suggests its not been the type if thing where i was able to go through the "plan of salvation" or anything like that, but its so cool when you can do anything to share yourfaith. We did this exercise the other day called "escape from Primavera Island" Its where there are 12 ppl stranded on this island, a tsunami is about to hit, and only 7 ppl can be saved. As a group u have to decide which 5 die. One person was a Rabi, and our group was thinking we were going to leave him on the island. Well one girl pipes up and says she couldnt ever kill a religious leader, her catholic background wouldnt let her. I begain to speak, and talked about how for a person of faith , life isnt just what's lived on earth. That real life begins after death. and for a Leader, a rabi in this case, but a pastor, preist, or Emam of other religions, they wait for that. To a degree that is what they spend thier life doing, preparing for the after life. I was than asked by our Prof. if someone wanted my place on the helicopter, would i give it up. Confidently i said "Deffinatly!" ppl looked at me, one even stated she didnt believe me. i responded "hey i have no fear in death, i dont need to" Later a girl told me how impressed she was by me and my thoughts on the whole thing. I know its little but its a seed right? Plus a couple other times it came up about me being a person of faith, and how important it is to me. Anyway, its gonna be interesting to see what may come of it all. I need to pray for God to use me here. I know i am right where i am supposed to be. I am soo at peace here its incredible. God is showing me Favor and i need to be carefull to thank Him daily for that. Well thats it for me, im off to hit the books.
Love ya!

Update!

So it is almost the end of week one of classes, and it is finally starting to pick up. We actually did work today and i am so thankful!!! I was getting pretty bored!!!! Tonight we have a few chapters to read and although it is all reveiw for me i am going to enjoy reading it. I have come to realize that this semester is going to be a HUGE review. there is barely anything being covered that i havent already learned/experienced. Oh well thats life.
My day started out pretty frenzied. I overslept, to start. Showered quick threw gel in my hair and pulled up the mess of curls. Grabbed a travel mug of coffee and a meal replacement bar. Out the door i headed when I realized i didnt have any keys. I went to my purse, nothing, dresser, nothing. I looked EVERYWHERE! I prayed and asked God for a clear mind, when i got a "brainwave" to look in the couch cusion. There they were...of course. So i head to class, walking VERY fasgt up the hill to campus. I sit down and took a sip of my much needed coffee. And what should happen, but it dripped on my very light pink shirt. ACK!! Anyway the day continued and it didnt get a whole lot beter. Untill i got home. I got home and decided to call the church to get a phone # of someone who could drive me to church, r at least a few #'s of ppl whom i could ask. So the secretary told me she would ask around, then she said pastor Seth wanted to talk to me. He and i had a great chat, about ministry and stuff. Then I got back on the phone with Lisa and and she had found me a ride. I have never felt so at home at a church other than metro. I am soo blessed !!!!!!!!!!

Fall

There was a chill in the air as i got ready to go to the grocery store. I put on a sweater and my "puffy vest" and headed out. The smell of new apples mixed with this climate adjustment reminded me that Fall has deffinately arrived.
Fall brings with it many things. The begining of school, the harvest, pumpkins, and for church goers, the start of many new and pre-existing ministries. This year I will begin my fall season at a new church, a new home and a new school. I am going to meet with the pastor soon to figure out which ministries i can be plugged into. I am looking forward to that. I love to be involved in my church, it gives me a sese of belonging, helps me to make it "my own"
I guess this post is rather random and perhaps even nonsensical, however it is a post that was in my head .
Ciao!

In Me

If You ask me to leap
Out of my boat on the crashing waves
If You ask me to go
Preach to the lost world that Jesus saves

I'll go, but I cannot go alone
Cause I know I'm nothing on my own
But the power of Christ in me makes me strong
Makes me strong Cause when I'm weak,
You make me strong
When I'm blind, You shine Your light on me
Cause I'll never get by living on my own ability

How refreshing to know You don't need me
How amazing to know that You want me
So I'll stand on Your truth, and I'll fight with Yourstrength
Until You bring the victory, by the power of Christ in me

If You ask me to run
And carry Your light into foreign land
If You ask me to fight
Deliver Your people from satan's hand

To reach out with Your hands
To learn through Your eyes
To love with the love of a savior
To feel with Your heart
And to think with Your mind
I'd give my last breath for Your glory

To The Ends of the Earth

In the past few weeks, the song " To the ends of the Earth" has been coming to me. I was doing research for my sunday school lesson and it was on a website, I was playing a random playist and it played, I went to church and it was in one of the worship packages. As the praise team was rehursing, the words resenated in my head, and i felt my hand began to lift. I stood there and sang, the words "..cause i know that youve called me..." I have always said that i would do missions short term. But recently its been weighing heavy on my mind, and i long to go overseas. I know its a weird thing to desire, to leave the comfort of home, and go to a place where there is very littel, anf i will not only not be getting paid to work, but where i will be paying to go. But none the less it is on my heart, anad my desire is ever strong. I dont know when i will go or where. But i do know that i will be going at some point in my life.
Love to all